It's funny, the exact same thing in Jr. High happened. Everybody told me how much better Jr. High was than elementary. It sucked. Everyone told me how much better High School is than Jr. High. It sucks. High School for me has been the biggest struggle in schooling I've ever had. Not only did the school get bigger, the people got bigger and meaner.
Everyday I wake up sick because I absolutely do not want to go to school. I have literally 3 friends that I really feel comfortable around. I have another friend, but right now me and her are kind of shaky. We're becoming such opposites. She's the really pretty, talkative, tan, spazzy, and physical person, who wants you to be super spazzy and talkative with her all the time too, or else you better be ready for her to pound you like no other. (And physical as in biting, punching, and slapping you... all the time.) Where as me, I'd rather just listen to people, I don't like to have to be always moving around everywhere all the time, and I usually try not to touch people that much. And I'm not saying that it's bad to be like her, it's just that since we're so different its been hard to get along and not feel irritated with each other. That's a big reason why High School as been hard. I'm loosing people who are better "equipped" to handle so many people than I am. It's an introvert vs. extrovert situation, and I'm coming out on the bottom.
Yeah, I do have three really great friends, Juicebox, Spidey, and Fuzzy. (: (These are nicknames because it'd be weird to say their actual names.) But even then, I've never felt more alone in my entire life. I can't seem to fit in right. I'm just kind of the weirdo of our big group. While everybody is talking I just kinda float around, never sure if I should join in...
Then I walk down the halls and see people that I used to hang out with having bulging baby tummies, and everybody is always swearing, dirty jokes bounce around, every move I make is judged. As I walk all I can think is, Please don't trip, please don't trip. Why is she staring at me? Is there something on my face? Is that person waving at me? Should I wave back? What if they aren't waving at me?
When I sit in class politics and confusing equations mix and mingle. Teachers treat us like young children and expect us to act like adults at the same time. And I swear I haven't gone through a single day where I haven't heard one Freshman or Sophomore say sadly, "I'm forever alone." About a billion times. Come on, really? What the heck is with high school and having to have a relationship ALL THE TIME to fit in? You are what 14 maybe 15? Why do you even need a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Then again, with the dirty jokes. Why are you boys so perverted?? When you call out gross things to a girl. What exactly are you expecting? "Wow, your gross, inappropriate, rude, offensive, and vulgar language is really attractive." ? Come on boys, you should be better than that! And with girls, half of my school seems to walk around with a label on them like, "Yeah I'm ready and available. Willing to give myself away to the first person who asks." Girls, please!! Have some respect for yourself, really. Why can't you see that you are worth so much more than that?
Lastly why I really, really, really hate high school. Is that close to nobody has respect for ANYBODY. No one wants to work for their grades, no one wants to admit that we have really bad CRT scores, no one talks nicely to a teacher. Everyone is super obvious in their cruel remarks. Comments in class are snarky and sarcastic. People are so mean. That's it. High school kids are about as mean as you can get.
I. Hate. High. School.
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