Growing Up.

       Growing up means that you find out who you really are, not the image in the mirror, not the color of your hair and eyes, not the color of your skin. It's deeper than that, it's everything that pumps through your blood, it's the images your brain plays as you daydream, it's the colors you wear on a summer day, it's the books you read, it's your personality. When you finally find yourself, it also means that you can change yourself. Growing up is when you realize some things need to go and you are willing to accept that change. Maybe even become the person you always wanted to be.
       Growing up means getting hurt. Whether it's heart break, loneliness or despair  You can never avoid getting hurt very badly. Don't give up though, when we have struggles it's God's way of showing us that He knows what our divine capabilities are. Without pain there is no pleasure, without sadness there is no happiness, without failure there is no success. The light is always brighter when you've come out of darkness. We are all imperfect, and you are lying to yourself if you say you haven't ever hurt anyone, because you have. We are all people hurting each other both intentionally and unintentionally, trying to get by in this crazy thing called life. So when life is a rainstorm, learn to dance in the rain while waiting for the rainbow that uses the rain to shine.
       Growing up mean losing people you care about more than anything. Whether it's your choice or not, it's never easy to let go of relationships. Sometimes it ends in harsh words, hurt feelings and the decisions to cut them completely out of your life. Sometimes it's almost completely the opposite, you sit by them at lunch everyday, you wave at them in the hallways and you talk through text. But when it comes to hanging out and getting birthday party invitations, they never come, you are never mentioned, you could be on the other side of the world. Being friends is more like you the last name on the reserve list: the last choice they have. Because you've gotten replaced with someone funnier and cuter, or circumstances/feelings have been changed about you. That;s okay though, sometimes friendships aren't meant to last and even though it makes you feel inadequate, it gives you the chance to meet new people, and change your life's perspective on different kinds of people, and even their culture.
       Growing up means you have to take a lot more responsibility. Which means getting a job, taking school more seriously and having a lot more expected out of you from your parents.
       Growing up means everything changes.
       And I don't think I really like it...